Oblong is a perfect circle

At Baguio City, Philippines during my OSSEI days. First day last OSSEI.(With the  Phoenix Pips)
Photo courtesy by: Alexis

I want to have a perfect life. I know everybody wants it. But then, nobody is perfect. Why there are always buts in every wants? And do we really need to push harder than hard? I don’t know. I don’t see myself a girl with efforts. They say, some people say, that I do give efforts in some things but I don’t feel like I am satisfied besides, I always felt this useless and that everything I do isn’t enough to make them feel contented. But still, I do not strive. Today I feel it, later I don’t. I have this kind philosophy in life that I don’t need to push myself to be the best in something yet there are things around me that I can also learn. Honestly, I kinda feel guilty for when I see them in full efforts to which I cannot. I am not a genius though. I am contented that I know a little knowledge in everything rather than be a master of every such. My world doesn’t go round this life thus I live in a box shaped world with a lot of intersections and four side kind of life that I bet you cannot understand. I am not trying to be different it’s just that I am already different and we are all different. When I saw that huge reality that we are all different, that is also the day I exactly begun to stop comparing. I get irritated with people with annoying attitudes but my irritations have nothing to do to make them change. I hate them today; I hate them forever I guess.

Do you have any idea how many times I ctrl A and del this essay? I don’t have any idea though. I always happen to see another idea that is much better to what I write today and never mind the last idea that I decided to build and bear. That’s me. I am not contented. I always get distracted. I always change my mind as fast as I cannot believe. I forgot things. I am irresponsible but there is one thing I am proud of myself. I didn’t blame myself because I believe in destiny. They say destiny is a matter of choice but then as a matter of fact this was totally all my choice so why should I blame myself? There is no perfect life but we can live a perfect one. We can act like we live perfectly without peeing on someone’s head. Problems are made to be solved and I know you wouldn’t create a problem that you cannot stand and answer. Remember the problems in Math? There is always an answer isn’t it? If you do not know the answers, use calculator. Simple. J

Idol ko si Bob Ong

Malamang, balang araw, mababasa ito ng isa sa mga Fans ni Bob Ong (kung sino man sya talaga at kung may Bob Ong man na nag-e-exist) at masasabi nya na; "Ay! Parehas kami ng blogger na 'to". Idol ko kasi talaga sya, sana mabasa nya to. Sana. Sana. Sana.
Naalala ko pa nuong una kong mabasa ang ABNKKBSNPLAko(4th yr hs) na hiniram ko lamang sa ka-klase kong nag-valedictorian pero wala ako pakialam sa kanya. Para akong naka-yosi nung time na yun at parang gusto ko pa ng isa pa. Hanggang sa hiniram ko yung McArthur. Grabe! Na-high ako! Hinahanap hanap ko ang libro nya. Msyado akong nainspire magbasa ng kwento tungkol sa barkadahan. Naisip ko nga ngayon lang, siguro, madaming dilemma sa barkada si Bob Ong. Pangatlo kong binasa, Stainless Longganisa. Medyo nakalimutan ko na ang storya pero ang mahalaga, nabasa ko na yun. Pero hindi na ako nanghiram. Bumili na ako. Kauna-unahang libro ni Bob Ong na binili ko, pinahiram ko naman sa ka-klase ko, hindi na binalik. Mangiyak-ngiyak ako. Tapos eto na yung Alamat ng Gubat na sobra naman akong naiyak sa katatawa.
"Preti litel Bibe" hahaha. Ayun, hanggang sa nabili ko na ang Kapitan Sino na pinahiram ko sa ex jowa ko at hindi ko na nakuha. Gusto ko tuloy kuhanin yun sa kanya. Shet!!! Tapos, stop muna ako ng pagbabasa ng books. mga 2 years.
Ngayon, 4th yr college na ako. Nababalitaan ko na nuon ang "Ang mga kaibigan ni Mama Susan" pero hindi ko muna binili. Sabi nila, nakakatakot daw. Pero nung lunes lang, binili ko na. HAHA. Ang saya. Kagabi ko lang natapos. Tapos kahapon, bumili ako nug bagong libro nya, "Lumayo ka nga sa akin" Hindi ko pa nga pinapansin yon nung una. Akala ko ay POCKETBOOK na napasama sa mga libro ni Bob Ong. HAHA. Pero pag kita ko sa malanding font style na Bob Ong ang nakasulat, hindi na ako nagdalwang isip.
By the way, ang panget ng "Ang mga kaibigan ni Mama Susan". Mas madami ang boring na part kesa sa nakakatawa. Sana consistent na lang sya sa pagseseryoso sa hindi pagseseryoso. XD
At yung bagong pink na libro ni bob ong na kabibili ko lang, nakabalot pa, hiniram ng bading kong professor. Halos hindi ako makatulog. Sya na kasi ang nagbukas. Mahal na mahal ko pa naman ang mga libring nabibili ko. Lalo na at Bob Ong pa ang author. :( Di bale na, pababayaran ko yun sa kanya pag nag ka damage. HAHA :)